Nayttelijantaidetta
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: -nothing-
Topic: journal
Kaksi viikonloppua meni Seija Metsarinteen pitamalla Nayttelijan taide -kurssilla.

Kyllahan se tyosta kavisi tuollainen ammatti. Joutuisi antamaan itsestaan paljon enemman kuin missaan normaaliduunissa. Juuri harjoitusvaiheessa tuo tyo on rankkaa kun ei viela tieda mihin oikeastaan edes on pyrkimassa. Nayttamolla olo on tietysti juhlaa sinansa. Vaikka minusta oli monesti antoisampaa analysoida muiden "suorituksia" kuin olla itse tekemassa! Vahan pain vastoin kuin improkurssilla.

Kiinnitan nyt paljon enemman huomiota leffojen nayttelijasuorituksiin, joissa nayttelija sanoo olemuksellaan jotain aivan muuta kuin mita hanen suustaan tulevat sanat. Sita harjoiteltiin kurssilla ja siina sita on tyostamista. Vaikka jokapaivaisessa elamassa se tapahtuu ihan luonnostaan koko ajan...

Elaman taidetta
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: -work-
Topic: journal
Eilen tuli kaytya Ateneumissa Albert Edelfeltin nayttelyn avajaisissa, seka sielta pikapikaa riennettya entisen luokkakaverini taidenayttelyn avajaisiin Galleria Uusitaloon.

Jalkimmainen tilaisuus heratti ajatuksia ystavyyksista, jotka ovat hiipuneet tuon kouluajan jalkeen. Paikalla oli minulle ennen niin laheisia ihmisia, joihin yhteys on hiipunut kohteliaisuuden asteelle. Kenties olemme ihmisia, jotka ovat olleet toistensa kanssa laheisia vallitsevien olosuhteiden emmeka henkilokohtaisten ominaisuuksiemma takia.

En silti tunne ikavaa tai surua asiasta. Ehka elamantilanteiden muuttuessa meidan kaikkien kohdalla kay viela niinkin, etta tutustumme uudestaan. Ja jos ei niin on silti hyva tietaa, etta he ovat elossa ja voivat (ainakin paalta katsoen) hyvin.

Didn't happen
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: -nothing-
Topic: journal
Got e-mail today from a potential employer. They were sorry to say that I was not selected.

I'm kind of disappointed not having had a go at an interview - but I hear there were over 150 applicants so no luck, I guess.

Still, it's not bad working here at least not today. My new boss is OK and I got a new cell phone and everything feels just dandy. Why not enjoy it while it lasts? :)

Third ultra
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: -office noise-
Topic: me, myself and us
We had a second checkup (9+5) for the baby and it seemed to be OK! The doctor said that we might want to start enjoying this pregnancy now. Although it's not quite 12 weeks yet, we should be in the clear already.

She said I should contact the municipal system now and start going to the normal maternity clinic if I want to.

Second US
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: radio
We had a morning appointment at the fertility clinic. The doctor said our baby is 7+5 weeks old basing on it's measurements and it is still alive!

Cool, but I've had slight brown bleeding every day this week so I can't be entirely hopeful. The doctor said a small amount of brown blood could be normal but of course it would be better if I didn't bleed at all.

Hmm, trying not to bleed any more... :)

Nothing is certain except uncertainty
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: -nothing-
We went to the doctor's last Thursday and it seemed to be OK, just a little too small for its weeks. I hope it's not dead already. There was a heartbeat on ultrasound so it wasn't dead on Thursday at least.

Today Kalle was on business abroad and I noticed some bleeding going to the toilet. Not fresh blood and not much. Still, my mindset is definitely on mc now. I tried to surf the internet and I found some reassuring notions about this being normal. But my pregnancies have not been normal before, so why keep up the hope? Breasts are not sore anymore. I think it's a gonner, waiting to happen.

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
Now Playing: radio naapurin tyopoydalla
Topic: journal
Kavimme Kallen ja Katjan kanssa eilen Kinopalatsissa katsomassa uuden Harry Potterin ennakkoon. Olipa loistavaa kayda elokuvissa ilman tyypillista 15 minuutin mainoshelvettia, joka onnistuu aina pilaamaan tunnelman! Muut mainokset kuin leffatrailerit pitaisi kieltaa leffateattereista, tai ainakin myyda reilusti halvemmat liput mainontaa sisaltaviin esityksiin.


Olimme kaikki kolme sita mielta, etta kyseessa oli tahan mennessa paras Potter-elokuva. Eika ollenkaan huono fantasiaelokuva muutenkaan. Tosin on jalkikateen hieman vaikea asettua sellaisen asemaan, jolle hahmot ja tapahtumat eivat jo ole kirjoista tuttuja... mutta valiako halla, kun leffan perimmainen tarkoitus lienee saada sellainenkin yleiso lopulta tarttumaan kirjoihin selvittaakseen mista oikein oli kysymys.


Paivan linkki: www.jkrowling.com

Friday feelings
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Kiss FM besides office noise
Topic: journal
I just saw Jamie Oliver cook delicious looking roast chicken. Why don't we have organic chicken here in Finland?

Jamie has some legendary opinions, like: "Potatoes are the king of vegetables. Anyone that said they weren't, would be a liar, cause they're important, aren't they?".

You could just change anything in stead of the "potatoe" and "vegetables" and be prepared for a serious argument. Sure! :)

It starts again...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: - Paradise Falls -
We've known for 2 days now.

Should make an appointment to make sure everything is ok.

Me and "my" soul
Mood:  sharp
Now Playing: - office noise -
Topic: deepthought
I had a small revelation yesterday: I'm beginning to understand why people are not consistent in their behaviour. Anyone who reads this might consider me insane; but hey, it's your prerogative!

OK, so we are vessels for souls. The souls we carry are not ours. They have chosen the persons we are to live with and to learn with. Before us they have probably lived with someone else and after us they will probably live somewhere else with someone else. I don't know how many times each soul needs or wants to live with people - and if they live with other parts of nature besides humans.

Anyway, as life is about choice, I myself could choose to inspect this further and maybe start to communicate more with the soul that lives within me... but I strongly suspect this is not the meaning of life and could lead to a condition called schizophrenia. Suffice it to say that sometimes I may find comfort in the fact that although Hunnuh herself is a weak and timid being, the soul within her is not.